I have 5 more days of studying and 6 more days until I write my first board exam. And I absolutely hate preparing for it. Honestly, the information is interesting (some stuff is useless but the board thinks it is necessary that we know it) but the stress that comes with this is horrendous! I hate, HATE feeling so nervous and anxious all of the time. I wake up with a knot in my stomach and I feel sick all of the time. I am never hungry but I force myself to eat. I have started dreaming about the boards now. Ahhhh, I just want it over with! But I have so much to cram yet, that I really can't afford to have them any sooner. I have become a bipolar person too; one minute I feel like I can conquer this feat and get it out of my life while the next I feel like I am going to fail. Ugh. At the beginning of this I wanted to be in the top 50% of the people taking it, but now, I wanna pass.
Well, if I keep writing I'll just keep complaining, so I should stop and get into my studying for the day. Only a few more days of this before I can become human again.
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