I feel bad

So my roommate has this thing with not being able to keep things clean. I don't know why, but it bothers me quite a bit. I should just get over it and suck it up because it is not forever...but honestly, it is not that hard to do your dishes and pick up your stuff before you go to bed. Especially with three girls living together, it should just go without saying that you should keep your stuff clean. Not only for your own organization, but also out of respect to the other two that share the space.

Tonight really bothered me. I shouldn't complain on here but I have to vent. My roommate decided that she would do her dishes before she went to bed. Well, I had run the dishwasher earlier and she told me that she wasn't lazy, but was going to leave her dishes in the sink until tomorrow when the dishwasher got emptied. If this isn't lazy, then I don't know what is. :S Also, this means that I would have to empty the dishwasher tomorrow if I had any hope of her dishes getting into the dishwasher. So I decided that I would empty the dishwasher right then, as fast as possible, so that she could put her dishes away.

Lesson: it only takes 2 minutes to empty the dishwasher so you can put dishes into it. Not. That. Hard. Ugh.

Sorry if this seems horrible to write about, I just needed to vent because it really bothered me. I suppose I should head off to bed so I don't write more posts discussing dishwashing issues.

Sorry again. :S

Hills & Valleys: it is now about time to climb up a hill

Well, everybody has hills and valleys, currently here in school everybody seems to be going through a tough time. We are all very tired from the non-stop testing we have had for the last couple of weeks. I have had 6 exams in the last two weeks and have another two this week. It is just incredible how much I am learning. Or....supposedly 'learning'. Needless to say I have been putting in many, many hours of studying and can't wait for a slight break this weekend.

I have come to the conclusion that, no matter how busy I get, I will never, ever compromise my well-being for the sake of doing well. It is just not worth it. I have learned to be much less stressed out about my grades, because, in the long run, these pre-clinical grades don't matter too too much. I have done really well all through medical school so far that I just need to continue doing what I am doing and not let negative people around me pull me down. It isn't easy since my best friends seem very stressed right now and my roommate has just started taking antidepressants (with which she often forgets to take at the right time and takes a glass of wine or Benadryl to help her sleep; I feel so bad for her). This, coupled with me being exhausted and slightly burnt out, is very difficult. But this craziness doesn't last forever. And, no matter how difficult things get, or how much I don't feel like studying at least I have the comfort that I know that I am doing what I want with my life and wouldn't want to be doing anything other than medical school. Because in the end, I will be a doctor and I will save lives. (Now how cool is that?) :)

Quote the Cardiologist

One of my favourite quotes to date from the cardiologist lecturing about heart failure:

"You know these old folk, they remember their hygiene classes in elementary school about how you were supposed to drink 8 - 12 glasses of water a day. And guess what? These are the people turning into water balloons."

I don't know why this struck me as so humourous, but it made me laugh out loud.

October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month

Since October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month, I thought that it might be appropriate to copy what, I think might be the best Facebook profile status in a really, really long time:

Fake(+)(+), Perfect (o)(o), Perky (*)(*), Cold (^)(^), and even Grandmas \o/ \o/. Big ( • )( • ), or small (.) (.) save them all.

Support Breast Cancer

Awareness (Save the TaTa's) ♥

When Can I Stop Studying?

I think that I could use a break from studying.

Today one of my friends left me some cake in my mailbox at school. It was wrapped in plastic wrap and then aluminum foil. I decided to reward myself for finishing a lecture by eating it. After I was done I bunched up the plastic wrap that had some leftover icing. I pushed the icing down to make a little pocket of icing then squeezed the icing out. Then I thought to myself....I'd rather be popping peoples' abscesses than sitting here in the library memorzing random cancer drugs.

Sigh.......

And Breathe....

I believe that I am a better person for surviving the last two weeks of med school. Really. Everybody around here was calling last week Hell Week. And indeed, it was not fun. Normally we have one or two exams each week. This amount keeps me plenty busy and on my toes. Last week I had four exams. Well, technically, I suppose that you could count my surgery final as two exams, thus making it five. Sigh. I felt like I was running around like a chicken with its head cut off. It was extremely grueling since all I did was study, study, study. I didn't sleep much, I was so nervous I didn't eat much; not a good situation.

My goal was to pass all of my exams, and, of the grades I know of, I have passed everything. Mind you, I have to wait until to tomorrow to see if I passed my surgery multiple choice and written components...keeping fingers crossed!

Completing my surgical skills class I a wonderful feat. Don't get me wrong, I really, really, really enjoyed learning the sutures, surgical etiquette, scrubbing in, aseptic technique, etc., but I didn't like that it was jam packed into the busiest weeks of second year so far. But, I survived, and it is done.

I managed to celebrate finishing my crazy weeks by getting a pedicure with my friends and getting my hair trimmed so that I feel better. It is amazing how doing small things for yourself sometimes makes such a big difference.

Now, I have to play catch-up since lectures continued to march on last week while I was busy studying for my exams. Sigh. But, on the bright side, only three weeks until my parents come and visit me :)

Glad Today (yesterday) is Over

I had a cardio exam this morning that was absolutely brutal. Meaning it was difficult, long, and annoying. The class average was very low, as was my mark. At least I get to take a make-up exam that is already scheduled so that we can pass cardio. ugh. To add to the fun today, I got an email from our course coordinator for the patient simulations we do, saying that I need to attend the review session or I lose ten points because I didn't get above 80% on my last patient encounter :( I didn't think I did stellar, but I didn't think I did that poorly.

So I had to swallow two hard things today. :(

How My Life Has Changed in 2 Years

I was thinking about this earlier today, my life really has been busy these last two years. I have moved away from home for the first time, finished my first year and a quarter of medical school, as well, had and recovered from two surgeries. (well I am still working on my recovery from the last one, but I can still count it!)

I feel like I have really grown up and learned a lot about life and people in general. I could go into spiel about what I have learned, but this should be an entirely different post all together.

Anyhow, I am off to bed now!